I discovered my late husband’s terrible secret. I was so angry that I ate his ashes

JESSICA Waite thought her marriage to her husband Sean was perfect.

It wasn’t until his death in 2015 that his dirty secrets came out, leaving the mother and author so enraged that she ate his ashes in revenge.

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Now the mother and author has opened up about her experiences in her memoir, “A Widow’s Guide to Dead Bastards.”

In the book she explains how her husband of 17 years died of a heart attack during a business trip to Texas.

As Jessica searched her late husband’s iPad for the number of the Houston hospital holding his body, she discovered his damning surfing history.

According to the New York PostJessica remembers typing “Houston” into the browser, and as she did so, it automatically corrected to “Houston escorts.”

She also found searches for specific escorts, as well as their prices and locations.

But this was just the tip of the iceberg.

Jessica spent months unraveling her husband’s secret life and discovered that he was regularly seeing escorts and cheating on her with different women.

She also discovered that Sean had lied to her about having to work late on certain nights, and instead was busy downloading hundreds of depraved pornographic videos to his PC, all of which were organized and categorized into different desktop folders.

Shockingly, she discovered that he had rented an apartment in Colorado, where he would have sex with escorts and women he picked up.

Jessica writes in the recently published book how she struggled with coming to terms with her husband’s double life.

As she reflected on Sean’s betrayal, Jessica described cutting open the bag containing his ashes and taking them to her yard, where she mixed some of them into her dog’s feces.

“I desecrated the remains of my life partner,” Jessica wrote.

“But then, in desperation and guilt, he took more of his ashes – and actually ate them.

“The residue feels dry against my fingertips, coarser than baking powder, grainier than salt. They mix with the water, a mineral mud on the back of my tongue. I swallow.”

Jessica admits that at the time she was “disconnected from the reality of Sean’s death.”

Today, Jessica has a new man in her life, but daily thinks about the duplicity of the man she was once married to.

“I feel better and stronger than before, but I still cry almost every day, and I still feel like part of me has died,” she wrote.

“Because the part of me that existed in Sean did, too.”

The Widow’s Guide to Dead Bastards, £11.99, is on sale now Amazon.

Four warning signs that your partner is cheating

Private investigator Aaron Bond from BondRees revealed four warning signs that your partner may be cheating.

They start taking their phones everywhere

In close relationships, it is normal to know each other’s passwords and use each other’s phones. If their phone habits change, they may be hiding something.

Aaron says, “If your partner starts changing his password, taking his phone everywhere, even around the house, or if he gets defensive when you ask to use his phone, this could be a sign that he’s not being faithful. “

“You should also look at how they put their phone down when it’s not in use. If they look at the phone with the screen facing down, they may be hiding something.”

They start telling you less about their day

If partners cheat, they may start avoiding you. This could be because they feel guilty or because it is easier for them to lie to you.

“If you feel like your partner suddenly starts avoiding you and stops wanting to do things with you or stops talking about their day, this is another warning sign.”

“Partners often avoid their spouses or tell them less about their day because cheating can be difficult, remembering all your lies is impossible, and it’s an easy way to get caught,” says Aaron.

Their libido changes

Your partner’s libido can change for a variety of reasons, so it may not be a sure sign of cheating, but Aaron says it can be a warning sign.

Aaron says: “Cheaters often have less sex at home because they are cheating, but occasionally they may also have more sex at home. This is because they feel guilty and use this increase in sex to hide their cheating. You may also find that your partner will introduce new things into your sex life that were not there before.”

They become negative towards you

Cheaters know that cheating is wrong and for them it will feel good. This can cause tension and anxiety within themselves that they will have to justify.

“To release the tension they feel inside, they will try to convince themselves that you are the problem and out of nowhere become critical of you. Maybe you didn’t walk the dog that day, do the dishes, or do a book read. Book to your children before bed. A small problem like this can now feel like a big problem and if you experience this, your partner may be cheating,” Aaron warns.