Hilaria Baldwin has revealed that her husband Alec Baldwin wanted to kill herself after the tragic rust shooting.
In the last episode of their reality show, the Baldwins, Hilaria, 41, Alec, 66, in which he stated that he wanted to end his own life in an SMS message that he sent her the day after the fatal incident.
'I recently found these SMS messages between us, you know the day after. And you know, he said he wanted to kill himself, “she shared with a friend.
In October 2021, cinematographer Halyna Hutchins died when a gun used the A-list actor as a plug that was fired on the set of Western film.
In October, Alec reached an unknown scheme with the Van Hutchins family in their unlawful death case.
His trial for involuntary manslaughter was thrown away in August 2024.
Hilaria Baldwin has revealed that her husband Alec Baldwin wanted to kill herself after the tragic rust shooting.
In October 2021, cinematographer Halyna Hutchins died when a gun used the A-list actor as a plug that was fired on the set of Western film
“He is to blame for the survivor,” Hilaria continued in a confessional. 'You are involved in this thing that nobody can even imagine. And so it goes back to that day. He wishes it he was.
“He would change place within a second. This has influenced his health and his mental health enormously. '
“In recent years he suddenly started to have heart problems. He has been admitted to the hospital several times. He fainted … everyone just shouts, I'm going, I'm at the top and I shake him.
“It is sometimes difficult. But hopefully we are the most difficult, but the end of it. '
The couple has been candid about the impact of the tragedy at their reality show.
In the premiere episode, Alec spoke frankly about mentally empty by the shooting, while Hilaria revealed how he was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
“The past year was just terrible,” Alec admitted as he spoke in his confessional.
“There were times when I would lie in bed and I would just go:” I can't get up. ” And that is not at all like me. I am not like that in any way. Never.'
Hilaria, 41, speaking in her own confessional strength, added: 'Everyone who is close to Alec has seen his mental health abnormality.
Alec also spoke about how he was mentally empty because of the shooting and the subsequent test
“He was diagnosed with PTSD and he says at his darkest moments, if an accident had happened, why am I still here, why should I not be?”
Hilaria noted that her husband's character change was 'painful'.
She spoke to him and continued: “You wake up in the morning and you are:” Oh God, why am I waking up? ” You are at the point where you are so dark … it's so painful. '
Alec replied: “My good friend recently said to me:” How are you? ” And I said, “I am happier when I sleep than when I'm awake.”
“Although this is difficult and there are times when I don't know how we continue, I look at the children and I see how hard we try to create happiness for them, even when we mask things for ourselves,” Hilaria said.
'I know what we are going through might be unique, but every family experiences difficult times …
'All we can do is do our best and try to make our children happy. And so that's what we do. '
Alec and Hilaria knew in 2012 and his parents for seven children.
In his new reality show, Alec admitted: “There were times when I would lie in bed and I would just go” I can't get up “. And that's not at all like me '
At an emotional moment, Alec added: 'I honestly have, from the bottom of my soul, I don't know where I would be if I didn't have you and our children if I went through this.
Elsewhere in her confessional, Hilaria said: 'Halyna lost her life in the most unthinkable tragedy.
“A son lost his mother. We will feel and wear this pain forever. This will be part of the story of our family. '
“This has just been surrealistic, I mean, I can't even believe we are going through this,” Alec said to his wife in another scene.
“And I always feel more pain about you than me because I think to myself, I'm going to do my best to just get through it, and when I think of what it has done to you and how much it does and everything does.”
