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Vanessa Bauer felt suicidal and developed an eating disorder when skating coaches called her a ‘fat cow’
“I would force myself to vomit eight times a day!” DOI’s Vanessa Bauer reveals she felt suicidal and developed an eating disorder when skating coaches labeled her ‘fat cow’ at age 16
Vanessa Bauer has revealed that she felt suicidal when she developed an eating disorder at age seven at the hands of her skating coaches who would call her a “fat cow.”
The Dancing On Ice professional, 26, admitted she would force herself to vomit up to eight times a day, while her trainers called her “ugly” and claimed her professional partner had developed back problems because of her “weight”.
She plunged into a deep depression and soon locked herself in her bedroom for three days, contemplating suicide after becoming too ill to perform.
“I forced myself to vomit up to eight times a day!” DOI’s Vanessa Bauer has revealed she felt suicidal and developed an eating disorder when skating coaches labeled her ‘fat cow’ at age 16
She confessed that she was “constantly injured” and would pass out constantly, she did not skate without painkillers, because she had broken her foot and fingers.
Vanessa told The sun: ‘The low point came when I told my skating coaches about my illness. Their response was, “You’re doing all this and you’re still fat?”
“All my life was food and I didn’t know how to get rid of those voices in my head. Then I knew I had to seek professional help.
“I knew if I couldn’t stop the thoughts, I had to end them, because I had no future. My decision to go to therapy saved my life.’
Oh no! She plunged into a deep depression and soon locked herself in her bedroom for three days, where she contemplated suicide after becoming too ill to perform.
The TV personality claimed it all started when she was a student at an elite skater school in Berlin, where coaches spoke to parents after their child arrived during weekly weigh-ins.
Before she was even ten years old, she competed with her friends over who ate the least per day, which had become a recurring game.
It wasn’t long before Vanessa learned how to force herself to throw up when she was 12, a habit she thought her bullying coaches “knew and approved.”
Her morning started with a spoonful of oats mixed with water, which she would eat before starving herself for as long as possible in the day.
Tragic: She admitted she was “constantly injured” and would pass out constantly, she didn’t skate without painkillers, because she broke her foot and fingers (pictured in 2017)
When she confided in her own coaches, the sportswoman was told the condition was her own fault as she “wasn’t strong enough to keep going despite everything.”
She was replaced within a week and labeled a “failure,” but a female coach with a history of her own eating disorders helped arrange therapy for her.
She spent a year off the ice to focus on her own recovery, and decided to retire from competitive sports because of the “toxic and horrible environment.”
And while the role model doesn’t own any Olympic medals herself, she ‘skates to entertain people’ on the ITV show and uses her platform to educate others.
Vanessa stunned audiences when she won DOI with singer Jake Quickenden in 2018 before finishing second earlier this year with Strictly’s Brendan Cole.
Win: Vanessa stunned audiences when she won DOI with singer Jake Quickenden (pictured) in 2018 before finishing second earlier this year with Strictly’s Brendan Cole