Rebecca Grossman’s jaw-dropping letters to parents of two young brothers aged 8 and 11 after fatally running them over with her Mercedes

A breathtaking letter shows how a wealthy socialite begged for forgiveness from the parents of two boys she killed with her car after a drunken lunch in LA.

60-year-old Rebecca Grossman regrets not driving her Mercedes into a tree instead of the vulnerable bodies of the boys, whom she hit at a speed of up to 120 km/h in 2020.

The Los Angeles socialite, who was labeled a narcissist by prosecutors, also writes about her ‘tough’ childhood and how she herself had two miscarriages.

Grossman, a wealthy woman who allegedly had a drunken lunch with her former Dodgers star lover before fatally beating the two boys, was found guilty of murder earlier this year.

The correspondence was used by prosecutors to portray her as unrepentant, three and a half years after she beat eight-year-old Jacob Iskander and brother Mark, 11.

The boys’ mother, Nancy Iskander, was also nearly hit but was able to grab her youngest, five-year-old Zachary, and dive for their lives.

Nancy and husband Mark received the note from Grossman in March, a month after she was found guilty of murder.

During the trial, Grossman’s lead attorney repeatedly blamed Scott Erickson, a retired MLB pitcher, for the deaths, suggesting that his car struck the boys first when the couple – reunited after Grossman briefly separated from her husband – was driving through the street rushed.

The jury didn’t buy it – and a judge four days ago rejected the killer’s bid to overturn her murder convictions.

The letter, which was broadcast Wednesday in Grossman’s sentencing memorandum, had never been seen before and helped put her away.

“I have not had the opportunity to write to you since I was in prison, and I had a chance to read my letter so it could be typed and sent to you,” the three-page typewritten letter begins , sent on March 11.

‘First of all, I would like to express the deep sadness that I feel every day and that not a day goes by that I do not think of you and pray that you and your children are surrounded by guardian angels.

“And of course that includes your eternal angels, Mark and Jacob.”

She goes on to say that she hopes the boys watch over her to “protect” [her] from more pain,” while protecting her “family from harm for each of them.” [their] remaining days on earth.

Grossman denied that this was not the first, adding, “I really hope that one day you will be open to reading all the letters that I started writing to you over the past three and a half years and have continued to write .’

She goes on to say that she was ‘desperate’ to contact the couple, but was stopped ‘time and time again’ by people presiding over the case.

“I’m very sorry, and I always will be,” she claims at one point. ‘I have expressed my feeling of deep sadness.

‘[Even those were taken and redacted, blocking out my words or remorse, or the actions I wish I could have taken to prevent the accident,’ she adds, after prosecutors claimed Grossman was impaired with alcohol at the time of the crash – from the drinks she’d had with old flame Erickson earlier in the day.

She goes on to claim she would have driven her car into a tree if she had the chance, before embarking on a sob story about her childhood and life. A few weeks later, a judge would cite her boozing and speeding in his decision to uphold her conviction.

‘As God is my witness, if I had seen anyone in the road ahead of my car, my knee-jerk reaction would have been to immediately steer away hard, to avoid hitting anyone or anything,’ Grossman, who is married with kids of her own, writes.

‘I wish that I had seen something, even a glimpse – any sign of anything. I have re-lived that split second in time over and over in my head a billion times.

‘I give you my word that if I had been given the opportunity, I would have driven my car into a tree,’ she goes on to sate.

‘I wish God had given me the opportunity to give my life instead of that of Mark and Jacob’s. I’m not afraid of death, I know that our souls live eternally.’

She then hones in on her self-professed ‘strong relationship with out heavenly Father’, which she says started ‘at a very young age.’

‘I feel his presence always, even after this tragic and unthinkable accident,’ she writes.

‘At first, It was difficult to function at all. I could not remember what people had said to me minutes earlier.’

She then remarks how her elderly mother ‘died within a year of the tragedy’, after five years of suffering from Alzheimer’s – after which she ‘could not get up off my hand and knees from sobbing uncontrollably for months on end.’

‘I couldn’t believe how many tears could come out of my body,’ she gripes. ‘I so desperately wanted to reach out to you.

Conceding her pain ‘was only a fraction of what both [parents] felt, she then claims she was suicidal.

“I’ve been alone since I was 12,” she adds now, returning to a point in her life that none of the boys have been able to reach.

“My father left before I was born, and my mother struggled with having to work full-time as the sole breadwinner for three children,” the letter continues.

‘I learned to be responsible at a very young age.’

That’s why she says, “I’ve always had a soft spot for children, protecting them and helping them heal whenever I could.”

For example, ‘I was completely shocked when I knew for sure that children were indeed involved.’

She further claims that she was not even aware that she was behind the wheel at the time of the crash in September 2020.

Grossman adds that a news broadcast she saw from the hospital was “when.” [she first learned that the children had died. 

‘I started hyperventilating. I could not breathe. I could not stand. I no longer wanted to live on.’

It wasn’t until about a year after the accident the ‘fog’ she said had been shrouding her memory of the incident started to lift.

At this point, she writes, she was ‘being bullied constantly’, while worrying ‘about the two of you.’

She then singles out Nancy – the one present for the fatal crash – specifically, telling her, ‘Please believe me when I tell you, I originally thought you were a teenage girl with long brown hair on roller blades, falling.

‘When I caught sight of you, I gasped,’ she adds, before complaining about a bleeding disorder she said made her pull over first to make sure she was all right.

‘All I could think about is getting my car to the side and out of traffic. 

‘The vehicle’s emergency system called me with 60 seconds of the air bags deploying. The woman told me she was passing me through to 911. This is why I did not call 911.’

Toward the end of the call, the woman on the other line told her she believed children were involved – something Grossman claims to have been aware of even at this point.

‘My heart stopped,’ she recalls of this. ‘I was saying to myself over and over, “no, no, they don’t know yet – this isn’t happening. There cannot be children involved. This is not possible.” Your brain can slip into the place of denial when you’re in shock,’ she writes.

After the crash, she says, ‘my brain kept telling me this must be a mistake. They would never answer my questions or my please for information regarding the children.

‘I honestly did not think that the girl I saw falling before my airbags deployed was even related.

‘They did not say to me there was a family, there were parents, how old the children were. They never answered my questions.’

She adds shortly after: I wished I had a dash cam on my car that night. I told my husband and children that at the same time my airbags deployed, I thought something came down on top of my car.

‘I even reached out to people at satellite companies like NASA and Space X in hope that maybe there was a video that captured what happened.’

She goes on to mention her two children, both of whom were present for much of the proceedings.

‘To even think about this is so painful and saddens my heart.

I will forever cry for you both and continue to pray that God comforts you in knowing that you will be reunited with your children.

‘I suffered two miscarriages,’ she goes on to reveal. ‘And I know that this is no comparison, but even those losses were heartbreaking.

‘I saw this with all sincerity, I have so much empathy and love and compassion for your both.

‘I wish I had never left my home that day. I would have done anything to change what happened.

‘With all my heart and soul, Rebecca Grossman.’

On Monday threw out her bid to have her murder convictions overturned for a new trial.

The wealthy socialite’s attorneys argued that she was entitled to a trial do-over because prosecutors at her trial four months ago produced ‘insufficient’ evidence to find her guilty and ‘misled’ the jury.

But Los Angeles Superior Court Judge Joseph Brandolino rejected Grossman’s pleas Monday, telling the court in Van Nuys, California, that he found prosecutors had proved beyond a reasonable doubt that she had acted with ‘implied malice’.

Under the law, to prove second degree murder, prosecutors had to prove ‘implied malice’ – that Grossman knew what she was doing when she ran down the Iskander brothers.

Grossman has already been accused of using dirty tactics to try to get her convictions overturned, like conspiring with a friend to contact the Iskanders and give them a necklace with their late sons’ birthstones

Prosecutors say that from jail she told her husband, and daughter to hunt down jurors and seek out witnesses to try to get them to change their testimony and sway Judge Brandolino into giving her a new trial.

She also allegedly told Alexis to publicly release a sheriff’s deputy’s body-camera video that had been sealed by the judge.

Her sentencing has been slated for June 10.